My Brush With Cancer

As I write this, I’m very sensitive to the fact that a very good friend and brother in Christ is dying from cancer.  He is suffering in a way that I hope I will never suffer, a way that I had hoped he would never suffer.  So I do not want to be melodramatic about my own brush with cancer.  I am not suffering, and I am not (as best we can tell) dying.

But I did have cancer.  That’s what I learned yesterday morning.  This was an unparalleled shock to me and to Allison.  I have never been anything but healthy, and even though I know that previous good health is not an assurance of continuing good health, I think it’s human nature to just assume that if you have always been healthy, you will continue to be healthy.

Unfortunately, that’s not how cancer works.  This post is to update you on what has taken place in my life so far as it concerns this cancer.

As I wrote before, on Labor Day weekend I went to the emergency room with bad stomach pain.  It was determined that I had appendicitis – not the worse case appendicitis, but it needed to be removed.  So, that night they did an emergency appendectomy.

I spent a few days in the hospital.  I recovered quickly.  I went back to work that Friday, and as of today, I feel pretty good.

Yesterday was my scheduled post-op visit with the surgeon who removed my appendix.  He came into the room with another person, which I thought at the time was odd. He checked my incisions, which were fine.  Then he sat me down in a chair, and told me that they had found cancer in my appendix.

Without going into several paragraphs of text here, this had an immediate and unexpected impact on me.  I write this just to help others who may hear the words, “You have cancer.”  I was not at all prepared for feeling the things that I felt and continued to feel over the next 24 hours.  Be very gracious to someone who has recently heard these words.  They are not themselves.

The cancer that I had was extremely rare, called “carcinoid”.  Appendix cancer in general is very rare.  It is normally not discovered unless someone has an appendectomy.  Otherwise, it grows unnoticed, with no symptoms, until it is too late.

Today I learned from my doctor that my carcinoid tumor did not cause my appendicitis.  That developed due to some other infection.  So, both of the surgeons I spoke to, as well as my own local doctor, agree that my appendectomy probably saved my life.  Without the appendicitis and the appendectomy, the cancer would have continued to grow, unnoticed, in my appendix, eventually spreading to my colon and/or my liver.  At which point, the symptoms would have become apparent, but far too late for any reasonable treatment.

“For most cancers,” the doctor told me, “by the time you have symptoms, it is already too late.”

I have learned a lot about myself over the last 24 hours, and I have grown in my faith and understanding of my God, but I will save all of those observations for another day.

What’s important for all of you, my friends and family, to know is that I had cancer, but it was removed with my appendix.  As far as the doctors can tell, I do not have cancer anymore, and there is not a logical reason to anticipate having cancer in the future.  There will be no required testing or scanning moving forward, other than whatever my family doctor decides to pursue.

I am always very hesitant to explain why God does the things that He does.  The truth is, we do not know all the reasons why God does what He does, and the Bible does not encourage us to guess.  It encourages us to trust in His goodness and His promises.

But I will say, that it might be true that God, in kindness to me and my family, allowed me to have appendicitis so that a cancer tumor we knew nothing about would be removed from my body.  If that is true, praise the Lord who is good beyond all measure to His people.

Alternatively, it might be true that this is the beginning of some great trial in my life…that cancer, or something worse, resurfaces in my body in the years ahead.  If that is true, then praise the Lord who is good beyond all measure to His people.

What else am I to say?

God has always been good to His people, and He will always be good to His people.  There is suffering, and then there is death, but both are swallowed up by life, eternal and incorruptible (1 Cor. 15:54).  We are all dying, but those who have trusted Jesus for forgiveness and life, will live.

So please pray for me, and I will pray for you as the Lord brings you to mind.  And thank God for His goodness to us in both life, and then death, and then life again.


Emergency Surgery: My Story and Observations from Labor Day Weekend

by Reggie Osborne II
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I had a big weekend, and I know a lot of people have been praying for me, so I wanted to write something up to explain what happened, but also so that I can have some record of my thoughts and feelings from this point in my life.  This is important to me, because as I get further and further way from Labor Day 2015, my memory is going to slip a little.  I want to have something written down…something out there.  I want write a blog post about it while it’s fresh in my mind.

So this might be a little long and a little boring.  You don’t have to stick with it to the end.  It’s as much for me and my children as it is for anyone else.  I’m not going to go back and do a lot of editing to clean it up and make sure it flows well.  I’m just going to write it and see what comes out at the end.

Saturday, 9/5/15

I woke up Saturday around 7:00 AM and went to work.  I’d had dinner Thursday night Eric Derr.  I had premarital counseling with Tim and Lydia on Friday.  This hadn’t left much time for sermon preparation, and Sunday morning often feels like a ticking time bomb when you know there’s work left to do.

I already had a pretty bad draft written for the sermon, so that was good and bad – good that I had 11 pages of something to work with, bad that it was in such a rough state.  I went to work for about 2 hours on Saturday, hammering things into place and cutting out the junk.

At 9:00 AM I started to get ready for the cross country meet.  Halle was running in Greenville, and I was really looking forward to it.  On a whim, I decided to go out and do a little running of my own.  I’d been running 1-mile intervals since Monday morning, and I knew it was only going to get hotter as the day went on.  So I threw on some clothes, went outside, and ran a 7:37-mile.

So awesome!  I can’t tell you how long it’d been since I’d run a sub 8-minute mile.  I’ve been secretly hoping to get back to the 5:25 mile I ran in middle school, and this was real progress.  I showered, threw on some new clothes, bragged to my wife (who seemed to care less) and we went to the meet.

Cross-country was great.  Halle was great.  The team was great.  Mickey, Jalynn, Evan, Hannah, Lauren…everybody did well.  We came home, I went back to work on the sermon.  And I started eating.

Now, I’ve been eating healthy…really healthy…for months now.  I’ve lost 30 pounds this year.  But I didn’t eat healthy Saturday.  I had a double cheeseburger from Wendy’s with way too many fries.  I drank a ton of diet pop.  I ate fried foods that evening.  I had nachos with beans and cheese.  I had lots of chips.  I ate bad.

I do this a lot when I’m getting ready for Sunday because unhealthy food is a nice pick-me-up.  It gives you a quick calorie surge of energy, and it breaks the monotony of writing and editing and preparing.  But this was overboard into gluttony.

I went to sleep Saturday night already feeling bad.

Sunday, 9/6/2015

I wasn’t surprised when I woke up at 3:15 AM on Sunday morning.  My stomach didn’t feel good, and with all the calories I’d eaten, my mind was running immediately.  I tried to go back to sleep, but gave up after about 20 minutes and went out to the living room with the laptop.  I worked on the sermon for another 3 hours…overhauled everything.  I felt good about it at the end, and thanked God for getting me up to do the work.

The family started coming awake around 7:00 AM, so I showered, got ready, and went to church.

There were a lot of people at church for a holiday weekend.  Normally, Memorial Day, Independence Day, and Labor Day spell low-attendance…but not the case that Sunday.  We weren’t packed, but there was a good crowd.

I preached hard on Sunday morning, and didn’t feel bad.  I was sweating a little, but I wasn’t too uncomfortable.  However, when I sat down from the pulpit, I felt sick right away.  Nathan asked us to stand and sing a song from the hymnal in closing.  I sat and sang.  When the service ended, I wanted to stay in the pew, but I made myself stand up front in case anyone was ready to make a decision for the Lord.

After about 10 minutes of standing and talking, I found Allison and asked her to take me home.  My stomach was cramping badly.  I was kicking myself for eating so poorly the day before.  She took me home.  I laid down in bed with some audio commentaries and began to prepare for Sunday evening service.

The pain got worse.  At about 1:30 PM, I decided to close my eyes and try to sleep this off.  Sometimes, if I can sleep on a Sunday afternoon, my body will do a sort of “reset”, and I’ll wake up feeling strong, because I’m usually pretty wasted after preaching the morning service.  However, when I woke up around 2:00, things weren’t getting better.  They were getting worse.

I texted Rodney to see if he’d cover the evening service.  Of course he would, he said.  I should rest.  I thanked him and told him I’d still try to be there.  I felt like a sissy.  This would be the second Sunday evening I’d miss in a few weeks span, and this time I had no one to blame but myself (I thought).  If I hadn’t eaten so poorly the day before, I’d be able to do my job better.

That afternoon the pain in my stomach began to intensify.  I tried to go to the bathroom, but couldn’t.  I tried to throw up.  Couldn’t do that either.

Now, to be honest with you, my stomach has been a real burden for me over the last several years.  And so the pain I was feeling was not unusual.  In fact, the pain on Sunday was not even close to the worst pain I’d had in my stomach – but it was strange that nothing was happening.

Allison went to church with the kids that night at 6:00, while I rolled around in bed.  I kept getting up to throw up, but it was just more heaving with nothing coming out.  The pain was slowly increasing.  At 6:15, I called her home.  I was starting to lose it emotionally.

When Allison got home around 6:30 I was in bad shape.  I was praying for God to take away the pain, and yet, the pain was causing me a sort of panicked hysteria at times.  I had not been able to eat anything since 2:00pm.  I couldn’t go to the bathroom.  I couldn’t throw up.  I didn’t want to be sick, which added to the frustration.  It was Labor Day weekend!  We had a picnic, basketball, games, a nice day with my kids…but this wasn’t going away.

She sat in bed with me in the dark and gently comforted me.  When I am very sick, she does this for me.  She will sit beside me and run her fingers up and down my back, or across my forehead, relaxing me and helping me go to sleep.  That’s my approach to sickness.  If I can just go to sleep, I’ll wake up and things will be okay.

By 8:15, it was clear that the pain was not going to let me go to sleep.  It had now been about 6 hours of intense suffering, and still no change.  At this point, I was beginning to think of the hospital.

I hate hospitals.  I spent months in a hospital as a little boy.  It was traumatic in more ways than one.  I hate paying hospital bills.  But I was getting desperate.

My hope was, if I went to the hospital, they could give me something to help me sleep, and I’d be better the next morning.  I wasn’t running a fever, and I didn’t have any of the pain normally associated with an organ issue, so I wasn’t concerned about it being something more serious.  I just had to be able to go to sleep, or else Labor Day would be ruined.

At 9:00 PM, I crawled out to the van and Allison drove me to Reid.

The staff at Reid took my illness quite seriously, which surprised me.  I’m used to long waits in the waiting room when I go with other people…and honestly, I can’t remember ever going for myself, so I just anticipated it would be a long wait.  It wasn’t.

They immediately put me in a wheelchair.  While we waited a few minutes, a little boy beside me named Angel cried.  I asked his mother what he was there for.  She said it was an ear-ache.  I prayed for him.  I told him, “I’ve prayed for you, little buddy.  The Lord will take care of you.”  He kept crying, uncomforted by my words.  Hopefully he will remember God’s goodness to him at some later point.

In five minutes I was in an emergency room.

By this point, the pain was so bad that I could only sit in one position, keep my eyes closed, and wait.  I was waiting to throw up, or have some bowel-movement, or SOMETHING to alleviate the pain.  The nurse who came in was wonderfully kind.  I was able to tell her about my faith and my pastoring.  She ran through tests, and then she brought back drugs.

I’ve never take drugs before.  I’ve never smoked, drank, or been on a narcotic.  I did not understand the appeal.  However, when she injected this drug into my IV, the pain from my stomach was gone in seconds.  My legs, which had been tensed and shaking, relaxed.  My neck and back relaxed.  I reclined the hospital bed and was able to lay down.  The discomfort in my stomach was still there, but the pain was gone.  It was the most amazing physical thing I’ve ever experienced.

At this point, I believed that I would be able to endure the night…finally go to the bathroom or throw up…my stomach would settle-down, and I would go home.  This was naive, of course, but I still wasn’t running a fever or anything.  I believed my problem to be the over-eating on Saturday.

The doctor came in fairly promptly.  I shared my faith in God with him, invited him to church in New Paris.  He asked me about my sermon that morning.  I told him about forgiveness in Jesus.  He was very kind, and ordered a CT scan.

Before I left for the scan, he placed his hand below my right hip bone and pressed down.  Immediately I felt enormous pain.  That was the first time I began to think, “This might be more serious than stomach sickness.”

The scan went well.  I told both technicians about being a pastor and invited them to church.  I had never been scanned before, but under the relief of the narcotics, it was perfectly fine.  I returned back to the room, and a little while later the doctor returned as well.

My appendix being pulled up through my belly button.

My appendix being pulled up through my belly button.

A bad appendix is 6-mil in size.  My appendix was now 12-mil in size.  I would be having surgery as soon as possible.  Everyone had already been called in.  There was no choice in it.  The doctor left.

Monday, Labor Day, 9/7/2015

There is something strange about having no choices left to make in your life.  I had never been at this point before.  I was in the hospital, and surgery was an hour away.

There was no time left to call anyone, or do anything else with my life.  If surgery went bad, I had seen my children for the last time, my parents for the last time.  And it’s not as if surgery could be delayed.  If I did not have surgery, my appendix would rupture, infection would spread throughout my abdomen, and I would most likely die.

My life had reached a break-point…a stop sign.  That stop sign was surgery.  It was immediately upon me.  I would either continue beyond this stop-sign, or the earthly part of my journey would end here.

I asked Allison for her phone.  I asked her to look away, and then I wrote this email to my own address:

Subject:  In Heaven

As morbid as this may seem, I’m getting ready to go into surgery, and wanted to write something to be read should something go wrong.

Which is silly to say because nothing can truly go “wrong” for me.  My life is hid in the promises of God, who has determined to work all things for my good – even my death, which I hope is still some way off.
And yet, in the event that I’m wrong, let it be known to all that my faith was never in surgeons or hospitals.  I’m grateful for both, but these are just gifts of grace from the Giver of all good things.  My faith is in the hands of my God, and should I see His face for the first time later tonight, it is my enduring wish that all who read this will serve Him with all their hearts.  Let’s look forward, together, to that eternal reunion which we await in hope.
Love and be gracious to my wife and children.
In heaven,

I sent the email to my own address and told Allison not to read it, confident she would find it eventually if something awful happened.

As I we waited for surgery, we prayed together in that little room and thanked God for the 14 years of marriage He’s given us, the five children, and the kindness of financial blessing and healthy provisions.  I then thanked Allison for urging me to go to the hospital.

Normally, when I am sick, I go off by myself so that Allison and the children won’t be disturbed.  I then suffer through the night, and recover the next day.  If not for the Labor Day picnic, this is what I would have done on Sunday night.  I only went to the hospital because I wanted to get better in time for the picnic.  I wanted to at least sit in a lawn chair and enjoy the day with God’s people, even if I would be too weak to actually play.

If I had not gone to the hospital, I might have died.  At the very least, my suffering would have been tremendously worse, with much longer consequences.  I was now very grateful for God’s kindness in compelling me to go.

Then I had a visitor.  Jack, friend for decades, was working at the hospital and had seen my name on a chart.  He had seen that my condition was serious, and so he had come to my room.

I mentioned earlier in this writing that I had eaten dinner with Eric Derr on Thursday.  During that dinner, we had talked about Jack once again.  Eric and I usually talk about Jack when we meet, as we both have prayed for him and longed for him to return to serving the Lord.

On Thursday, Eric had told me that Jack had repented of sin, and was returning to the Lord.  Eric said that he was supposed to be at church on Sunday, and so, Sunday morning I had looked for him eagerly, but he had not come.  Now, during the early morning hours of Monday, the Lord had brought Jack to me through the most phenomenal circumstances.

So Jack and I and Allison sat and talked about him and his life and us and our lives.  We talked about sin and suffering and how much I missed him.  I asked him about what Eric had told me and he said it was true.  I prayed with him.  We fellowshipped together for the first time in years.

Then he was gone.  The nurse returned.  I received more narcotics, mercifully, and soon I was off to surgery.

As I went to surgery, I was in very good spirits, not because I was in an altered state of mind, but because the pain was totally gone.  I talked with the nurses who wheeled me around about church and invited them to come.  I made a point of thanking everyone involved.  I held Allison’s hand.  I even joked occasionally.


Allison took this picture minutes before being taken back for surgery. I wanted the kids to know I was not afraid, but was trusting the Lord.

We stopped in a dark room in the heart of the hospital where I was left alone with Allison while final preparations were made.  I held her hand.  We prayed again.  She kissed me…really kissed me.  She has not kissed me like that in a public place since the day we were married.  It is good to be loved like I am loved.  I told her to trust the Lord, to be happy in hope, and to always do what was right.

We did not say “goodbyes”.  We are Christians, and so there are no “goodbyes” for us.

They took me back to the operating room.  Once again I told the staff I was a pastor and invited them to church…”the big church as you come into New Paris down the hill”.  The lady asked me if I had hair on my belly – which seemed strange, but then made sense.  She said they’d shave it off.

She brought out a board and put it on the right side of my bed.  “Put your right arm out here.”  I laid my right arm on the board.  She strapped and tied it down.  “This is so you don’t move it during surgery,” she said.

“I saw this same thing in Braveheart,” I said.  They all laughed.  Those could have been my last words, looking back on it.  I probably should have chosen them more carefully.

They put the oxygen mask on – an uncomfortable thing to be sure.  And I was asleep.

Then I was awake.  Was that it?  Was the surgery over?  It was, they told me.  Okay, then…not dead yet, I guess.

I was not fully conscious for the next several hours, but I remember them taking me to a room.  Nathan, my brother, was there, waiting with Allison for me.  Allison pointed him out to me by saying, “Nathan is here.”

“Sorry to hear that,” I said, jokingly, and I trust it was received the same way.

A fine friend to have, who will come sit with your wife in the middle of the night.  The secondary blessings of being raised in a Christian home continue to pay dividends in my life.  My parents never had money, but their investments in the Word of God have been worth more than gold.

Allison has said that I continued inviting nurses to church after my surgery.  Nathan told me that he expects half the hospital to be there on Sunday.  I don’t remember this after my surgery, but I’m grateful that in my groggy state of mind I spoke God-glorifying invitations to others instead of angry words of frustration and anger.

My dad came to replace Nathan and sat in the room with Allison and I until well into the day.  My mother had watched the children all through the night, undoubtedly praying for me without sleeping or stopping.  On that I would bet my life’s savings.

I slept mostly until the afternoon.

At one point on Monday afternoon I experienced the most pain I have ever had in my life.  When they do a surgery like this one, they blow air into the body so that they have room to operate.  Of course, this air has nowhere to escape after surgery, and has to gradually be absorbed into the body before it can pass out of the system.

A significant amount of air was in my body, or at least, it felt significant.  The pain was unbearable.  I was convulsing, shaking all over, biting down on my lips, begging for help from the nurses who did not have permission to give me any other drugs.

“Please,” I said.  “You have to do something,” I begged through chattering teeth.

They left the room to call the doctor.  Allison held my legs down to the bed so I would not hurt myself.  I closed my eyes and prayed for help.

A few minutes later they returned and gave me two shots of a different drug – a narcotic.  Within seconds the pain was gone, just like it had been the night before.

I have to be honest with you.  I have never understood drug addictions in the past, but I believe I get it now – or at least, I get part of it.  To be given immediate peace and rest, within seconds, is fairly incomparable to anything else I’ve ever experienced in my life.  I even said to Allison, “I wish I had some of those shots on hand for when i get a migraine.”

I will never look at drug addicts the same way again.  It is baffling to me that we have medications that can relieve pain so instantly and thoroughly.  I remained on that narcotic for the rest of the day.

Tuesday, 9/8/2015

There is not much to tell beyond this point.  I began to feel much better the next day. I am generally strong and healthy, and I was not surprised to recover quickly.  The nurses seemed to like having me as a patient.  I was kind, patient, complimentary, and well-mannered.

All day I got up to walk the halls of that hospital floor, and many times I heard the nurses being treated badly, or being asked to do things that would have made me gag.  I felt a lot of sympathy for them.  It struck me that I was probably the rarity, not the norm – that most of their patients were probably not kind, gentle, well-mannered people who are trying to live godly lives to honor Jesus.

Suffering sinners can be brutal people.

Late Tuesday night I was sent home.  No lifting objects of any kind for 6-weeks.  No exercise, except light walking.  It’s going to be a while before I run again, but all in all, not too shabby.

Final Thoughts

My plan is to take this Sunday off, and possibly next Sunday as well.  After that, Lord willing, I will resume preaching God’s Word.  Allison and I are very blessed to have Christians praying for us and supporting us in times of need.  Our hope in the Lord Jesus has always prevailed, and it always will.

It struck me that if I had been born during Jesus’ day, I would have died at 32 years old.  My appendix would have ruptured, and I’d have died of a fever like so many others did in ancient times.  Inside my body was a ticking time bomb.  Though everything else was healthy, my appendix had a lifetime of 32-years.  I’ve never smoked, drank, or abused my body at all…but that little organ would have been the end of of me.

Thank God, I’ve been granted more time than that to make a difference for His kingdom.

Don’t waste your life.  You never know when it will be over.  You never know when it will hit a stop sign.  Live every day as unto the Lord of Glory, and die at the appointed time, tired and spent, with no regrets.



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The Life of John G. Paton

by Reggie Osborne II
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I have been remarkably blessed by the story of John G. Paton.  The lessons about parenting and prayer alone have been worth the investment of my time.

I first heard about Mr. Paton from Desiring God.  John Piper delivered a powerful biographical message on his life and spurred my search for the autobiography of the man.

I found a free digital version of the book at which you can access by clicking here. I enjoyed it and think it’s well worth your time as well.

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Bee-lieve it. We’re in Trouble.

by Reggie Osborne II
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Last night the Associated Press published an article by Seth Borenstein that began with this staggering line:  “More than two out of five American honeybee colonies died in the past year…”

The article reports that since April 2014 beekeepers have lost 42% of their bee colonies.  That’s 42% of all American bee colonies wiped out in 13 months.  That is absolutely staggering.

My daughters would be thrilled to know that there will be far less bees moving forward.  Bees send them running in terror, squealing and screeching their way to safety.  But my oldest has learned how important bees are.  When I asked her recently if she understand what bees did, she answered, “They help the flowers and crops to grow and stuff.”

Well said.  If you’ve forgotten what exactly the bees do, then take a few minutes out of your day and watch the video below:

Bees are essential to our food production processes; absolutely essential!  If we entered a massive drought that prevented rain for months on end, we’d be far better off than if we lost all the bees.

So where are the bees going?  Well, the most likely culprits are the makers of insecticides in the United States of America, and if you don’t know much about the way our country works, let me just say, insecticide makers are huge power-brokers in our world.  They run massive corporations like Bayer, Dupont, and Monsanto.  These are not small companies.  These are giants.

Giant companies like these have the ability to control the press and control the government with big money.  They can make campaign contributions to candidates running for election, but more importantly, they can contribute massive amounts of money to Super PACS that effectively sway public opinion on important candidates and issues.

If a candidate takes their money, he or she is expected to vote their way on all important legislation.  If a candidate doesn’t vote their way as much as they’d like, their money is going to one of their opponents in next election cycle.

Aside from the money, these companies also have massive legal teams that constantly challenge any new regulations that might threaten their bottom-lines.  They win in courtrooms because their lawyers work endlessly on whatever they see as a threat.  Legal fees are not problem for them.  That’s just the cost of doing their business.

They are huge employers of lobbyists, Washington based groups dedicated to swaying votes and legislation one way or another.  These people are not paid to work in the best interest of the country or in the best interest of the world.  They are paid to work in the best interests of Monsanto, Bayer, and Dupont.  They are like the Patriots fan who has convinced himself that Tom Brady didn’t throw deflated footballs.  They’re not paid to be unbiased.  They’re paid to promote the company line.

These companies want their own places in government.  When they support a candidate for office, they expect that candidate to reward them with important positions once they’re elected.  Both Republican and Democratic presidents continue to put employees of these companies in powerful political positions.  Michael Taylor is the most prominent example.  At various times he has been a corporate officer for Monsanto, as well as the presidential appointment to head the FDA.

If it seems odd that an officer of a drug and seed company would be put in charge of regulating all the drug and seed companies, that’s because it is odd.  It’s more than odd.  It’s inexcusably reckless. As this article and many others explain, it’s essentially letting the wolves decide the best way to protect all the chickens.

It should not surprise us that these companies don’t want to take any blame for the disappearance of the bee colonies.  In fact, in the very article that the AP released last night, it’s a Bayer executive who argues against any alarm:

Dick Rogers, chief beekeeper for pesticide-maker Bayer, said the loss figure is “not unusual at all” and said the survey shows an end result of more colonies now than before: 2.74 million hives in 2015, up from 2.64 million in 2014.

So according to a Bayer representative, there’s no reason for any of us to be alarmed!  According to Bayer, we shouldn’t even care that 42% of the bee colonies died last year.  We shouldn’t be worried about the disappearance of bees at all!

Somehow, I’m not reassured.

Is it possible that Mr. Rogers is not being honest with his neighbors?  As the article explains, whenever a bee colony dies, the beekeepers split a healthy colony and replace it.  This means that the replacing colony has fewer bees, undergoes more stress adapting to the new work, and bears less genetic distinction from the previous colony.

In other words, Dick is right when he says that there are more colonies today than in 2014.  But he fails to mention that more than 50% of those colonies are  much weaker than the ones they replaced, and more likely to die themselves.  That’s not exactly an honest representation of the truth, is it?

It’s not surprising that the heaviest bee colony losses were in agricultural hubs like Oklahoma, Illinois, Iowa, Maine, and Wisconsin.  Each of those states lost more than 60% of their bee hives since last April.  Can you even wrap your mind around that?  60% of the bees in those places, gone?

The head bee scientist at the USDA, Jeff Pettis, apparently claimed that “last summer’s die off included unusual queen loss and seemed worse in colonies that moved more.”  It’s logical to believe that the colonies that move the most are the colonies exposed to the most insecticides.

But the reality is that no one can definitively prove why the bees are dying.  So long as Bayer, Monsanto, and Dupont can deny any responsibility, they will.

For Christians, this is a reminder of how little we actually control our world.  God made bees to do the job that they do, and they cannot be replaced by man-made robots or lasers or radio waves.  He is the Life-Giver, and yet it’s often uncomfortable for us to be reminded of how much we depend on Him.

For the human side of it, if it turns out that these chemical companies are destroying the bee population, than what a silly lie we’ve all believed about the importance of their work.  The argument has been that without their products, we could never feed the world.  But if those same products are inadvertently killing off the very creatures we depend on to pollinate crops, then they’re marching hundreds of millions of people to hunger and starvation.

They don’t want people thinking about that possibility, but if the bees keep dying, this story will inevitably generate a tremendous amount of buzz.



Thinking About My Death

by Reggie Osborne II
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Yesterday was a perfectly fine day.  It was better than fine.  I preached a sermon that I’ve been waiting some time to preach.  I played basketball in the afternoon, an event I no longer take for granted with how scarcely it happens these days.  I survived the evening service.  I came home to happy children and went to bed at a reasonable time with my wife.

Then I thought about my own death.

I don’t know why I started thinking about my death.  It just happened.  I closed my eyes to go to sleep, and the thought of it came to me:  What would I do if I found I was going to die?

Questions like this haven’t bothered me much lately.  Life is hard and often times unrewarding.  For the last six years or so, I’ve lived predominantly for heavenly reward.  I no longer hoard money or possessions as I used to.  I’m not trying to retire early.  In fact, I no longer plan on retiring at all.  I push myself to work to exhaustion on projects and meetings and jobs that could bring glory to God in His church.

I want to go to bed completely spent, for Jesus’ sake.

So for awhile now, thoughts of my own death have not bothered me much.  I will not miss my family after I die.  I will be with Jesus, and there will be no more sorrow for me.  And I have no other major things in life I would like to accomplish if the Lord decides to call me home.  Now, I have other things I would like to accomplish – but at the top of my list of goals is the desire to be with Jesus.  So I would not delay goal #1 to accomplish #2 or #3.

But last night, when I thought of my own death, I thought of my son.  He is four years old.  He has far more energy than I do and routinely asks me to do things that I am too exhausted to do, or that are hilariously impractical.  It might be 30-degrees outside when he asks if we can go swimming, or it might be pouring rain when he asks if we can ride bikes.  Or I could be flat-out exhausted to the point of a migraine when he asks if we can wrestle, and all I can mange is to tickle him for a few minutes.

I love my son.  I love my daughters as well, all four of them in their own way.  But I am convinced that, should I die, my wife would be for them what they need the most: an example of life and godliness as a woman of our King Jesus.  But who will be that to my son if I am gone?

Last night that question deeply troubled me.

I am sure that there are honorable people in my life who would try to help my son if I were to die, my own father and brother first among others.  But I also know that nothing can replace having a father in the home.  And though I have repeatedly told my wife not to stay single for my sake should something happen to me, I am not convinced she would remarry.

Who will raise my son in my stead?

This troubling thought tormented me for more than a few minutes last night.  And as irrational as it is for me to be concerned about these things at the age of 32 and in relatively good health, I cannot dismiss the notion of it.  People die.  I don’t imagine myself immune to that reality.

Now, from the time my first child was born, I would go into her room, hover over her crib, place my hand on her little belly and pray, “God, please be the Father to my little girl that I cannot be.”  I have repeated that prayer more times than I can count now 11 years into her life.  And I know that the same God who has been faithful to me, will be faithful to my children, should they call upon Him as Lord.

But I want to be there for my son.  I want to be his father, the father that every boy should have.  So I guess I will go to my yearly doctor visits without neglecting them.  I will make sure I go to sleep on time, and not pass the semi-truck who is swerving  slowly in the right lane on I-70 at 6:00 AM.  I won’t climb up ladders that haven’t been anchored properly or eat a diet of foods that come wrapped in paper or cardboard boxes.

But most of all, I will pray for life.  Not necessarily long life, but life just long enough to see my son to manhood.  That would be very generous of God to grant me that much.

And I will try to honor the Lord, so as not to bring His discipline in my life in ways that might hurt my family.  I do not want my life (or theirs) to be cut short because of sin.

And I will not take my days for granted.  I will make time, even now, to be a father to my son.  This does not mean doing all that he wants to do.  That’s not remotely possible, nor would it be good for him.  But I will invest more time into his little life.  I will bring him along with me where I go.  I will show him, by example, how a godly man talks and laughs and works and cries.

I will do these things to the glory of God, in hopes that He will redeem my son’s life from the clutches of sin so that I might spend eternity with him, with Him.

So thinking about death is never enjoyable.  Frankly, it’s often very unsettling and disturbing.  But if being disturbed is what causes me to come to godly convictions, then I will think of death as unto the Lord and remember the words of Paul:

“I say this, my brothers, the time is short…” (1 Cor. 7:29)

Indeed, it is.



When God Stops the Rain

by Reggie Osborne II
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California is in the fourth year of drought.  The video below demonstrates just how serious this problem really is.

Of course, the people of California and the rest of the modern world don’t believe God has anything to do with this.  They blame it on climate change.  Apparently their god has nothing to do with the climate.

The God that Christians worship, however, repeatedly claims responsibility for the weather (Gen 6, Ex. 9, Josh 10, 1 Sam 7, 12, 2 Sam 21, 1 Kings 8, 16, Hosea 13, Amos 4, Jonah 1, etc, etc, etc).  It’s beyond me to know why God has let a drought come over California for the past 4 years, and I don’t care to guess.  But I certainly believe He’s in control of it and that the rain (or lack thereof) remains in His jurisdiction.

On a side note, it’s pretty remarkable that this kind of an epic drought isn’t being treated like major news.  Outside of California it’s hardly even discussed.  Sporting events, social issues, and television shows dominate airwaves, but the fact that it’s not raining in one of the world’s most prominent places is barely mentioned.

Since 2012, the state has been literally dying.  Golf courses are still watered and the lawns are kept green, but the video above demonstrates the undeniable consequences of the drought.  Wells are drying up.  Entire communities are having water trucked to them each week.  Lakes have turned into ponds, and the state’s poorest populations are the ones who suffer most.

In the video above, the governor of California is confronted by the fact that the agricultural industry, responsible for growing food and supplying many low-income jobs, has not had their water cut off yet.  That’s right – the people of California are beginning to demand that their farmers let the crops die and food production be significantly scaled back.

And all of this is a sobering reminder of God’s power.  But it’s also more than that.

It’s a demonstration of how far we’ve come as human beings from acknowledging that an all-powerful “god” even exists.  Just a generation ago, national figures would be calling for our country to pray in the face of many modern-day troubles, including this drought.  But those days are gone, replaced by a time when religion (specifically Christianity) is mocked and scorned.  Christians are spoken of with the same ridicule that one might expect to be directed towards morons and clowns.

God has been dismissed.  He is no longer considered a significant factor in anything.

He is not considered or acknowledged in any form of national policy.  We do not think of Him before we go to war, before we sign agreements, before we change laws, or before we spend money.  We are not quite ready to strike His name from our currency and Pledge of Allegiance, but we have certainly struck God, Himself, from any position of influence.

In God’s book of wisdom we come upon the following counsel:  “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths. (Prov. 3:5-6)”

But we prefer the polar opposite of this wisdom.  We prefer to acknowledge Him in absolutely nothing, to direct our own paths, and to imagine that He does not mind being ignored out of existence.

This cannot continue.  It is an impossibility.  God will not be forever ignored.  One way or another, He will be glorified as Creator and Sovereign Lord.  He will not be despised forever.  That is the message repeatedly issued throughout Scripture.

And so when we think of four-year droughts, climate changes, strange weather patterns, and when we think of hostile enemies, lawlessness, and great economic suffering, we should remember that God is not dead, nor does He sleep.

We would do well to remember the northern Kingdom of Israel, which in a short 80 years went from dedicating the Temple to the Lord under the reign of Solomon, to worshiping golden calves and the Baals.

That’s right – it was only 80 years from Solomon to Ahab and Jezebel.  Time flies when you’re embracing heresy.

They went from strict laws forbidding sexual impurity to widespread homosexuality and adultery.  They went from a holy priesthood ordained by God through the tribe of Levi, to a sacrilegious priesthood of people consisting of anyone who wanted to be a priest and had the right connections.  They went from justice and integrity to the murder of Naboth for a pretty vineyard.

Nothing quite sums up the state of the kingdom like 2 Kings, chapter 1, when King Ahaziah – the son of Ahab and Jezebel – became gravely injured to the point of death.  But rather than going to Elijah, he sent his messengers to Ekron, the land of the Philistines, to seek the wisdom of Beelzebub.

He preferred the “Lord of Flies” to the Lord Jehovah.

2 Kings 1:6 – “Thus says the LORD: ‘Is it because there is no God in Israel that you are sending to inquire of Baal-Zebub, the god of Ekron?”

The tragedy of the United States of America is that we once celebrated the idea that God will hear our prayers and bless those who honor Him.  But now we don’t even bother to pray, let alone attempt to honor a God who seems at odds with our own ideas of morality.  Who is God to tell us what’s right and wrong?

This seems incredibly arrogant, and incredibly stupid of us – to put God in a position where His only recourse would seem to be supernatural judgment.  Maybe that’s why God has stopped the rain in California.  Maybe not.

But the Lord of Glory will only be robbed of it for so long…



Easter Prayer

by Reggie Osborne II
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O Father, forgive my sins.

And thank you for Jesus, whose loving and tender hands You saw fit to bind; whose head You saw fit to wound; whose heart You saw fit to pierce.

What sorrow to look upon Your only Son, innocent and kind, gentle and sweet, and to know that He must die.

And to see His skin split open, and to hear His crying, and to watch Him ruined beyond recognition, this man who you knew in His mother’s womb – this boy You call Your own – this child You fathered. What gruesomeness is this? What cruelty is this?

It is not Your gruesomeness. It’s mine. It is not Your cruelty. It’s my own.

He was wounded for my transgressions. He has suffered for my sins. You have laid on Him the iniquity of us all.

It has pleased you, Father, to break your little boy for me. Did you not know how unworthy I am of this? Has this not been a disappointing trade, his life for mine?

Did you not know how little I would live up to such a thing as this? I am not worth the price! Would that I could go back and beg You to stop, to lower the knife, to leave me in sin – for this would be justice.

You have not given me justice, but mercy. You have exchanged anger for grace and wrath for love. With innocent blood you have redeemed me from hands of death. At the price of an only son, you have bought a worthless sinner.

Oh that I would not disappoint you! Oh that I will, somehow, be granted strength to merit some fraction of this exchange, for truly it is far beyond my own power to earn any part of this.

I will sing, “Worthy is the Lamb who was slain. He has redeemed me to God with His blood. He is worthy to receive power and riches and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and blessing. He has borne our sin on His shoulders, and by His stripes, we are healed.

“Blessing and honor and glory and power be to Him who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb, forever and ever.




Psychic Evangelism

by Reggie Osborne II
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Me:  “Hello, my friend.  I am Pastor Reggie Osborne, and I will be your spiritual adviser for the evening.  What brings you to this illustrious church of paneled walls and dated drop ceiling?”

Searching Stranger:  “Well, I was talking to my friend here. And I just decided that I needed to make some changes in my life.  I haven’t been to church in forever, but I believe in God.”

Me:  “Ah, I see.  Well let me tell you about Jesus…”

{The Gospel is shared in a clear and simple way.}

“My main concern for you is that you trust the Lord for the forgiveness of your sins – that you’re saved from Hell.  Are you ready to trust Jesus with your life – to call upon Him as Lord – to follow Jesus with all your heart?”

Searching Stranger:  “Yes.”

Now, to this point, this conversation has gone about as well as it possibly can.  And frankly, that’s a little disturbing to me.  Because I’ve been in plenty of gospel-sharing scenarios before, and practically none of them go this smoothly.

I’ve been derailed by ghost stories, alien visitations, and countless deals that people think they’ve made with God in their pasts.

There’s always something.

So when someone shows up for one church service, asks to speak with me afterwards, and is immediately ready to trust Jesus as Lord and Savior, warning bells start to go off.  My sermon wasn’t even that good!

It’s not supposed to be this easy, is it?

What if you went to the bank for a loan, but when you got there the banker was already waiting for you at the door with a suitcase full of money.  What are you gonna’ do?  Sure you want the money – but at what point do you take a step back and ask yourself, “Is this for real?”

Don’t get me wrong – there’s nothing greater in the world than seeing someone be saved.  I could not possibly tally the number of hours I spend working to see someone trust Jesus as Lord.

But, on the other hand, there are few things as depressing as baptizing someone, completing membership classes with them, and embracing them as a brother…only to see them disappear forever a month later!  That sucks.  It really sucks.

So what I’d really like to do here is look into the future and figure out exactly where this is all leading…

Me:  “Before we pray, let me peer into my crystal ball and determine whether or not I’m wasting my time with someone who is going to stab me in the back and vanish like a ninja three weeks after your baptism…”

I do not want to be hurt.  I don’t like being duped.

So what I need is a radar gun that I can point at the chest of new Christians to detect whether or not they’re really saved.  If they are, then I’ll be happy to baptize them and throw all my energy into helping them grow.  If they’re not…well, I’ll keep praying and sharing the gospel until the radar gun gives me a confirmation!

See, at some point you start asking yourself, “Is it even wise to baptize someone so soon after a profession of faith?  Maybe we should just give this some time and see how this all plays out…”

Now, that’s my human nature infringing upon my faith in God.  That’s my desire not to get hurt interfering with God’s instructions.

And praise God, just about the time I start thinking that way, the Word of God saves me from incurring His anger – for what could possibly anger Him more than a pastor turning away a perishing sinner at the gates of Heaven?

Rather than a crystal ball, my fears are relieved by Scripture:

Now an angel of the Lord spoke to Philip, saying, “Arise and go toward the south along the road which goes down from Jerusalem to Gaza.”  This is desert.

So he arose and went. And behold, a man of Ethiopia, a eunuch of great authority under Candace the queen of the Ethiopians, who had charge of all her treasury, and had come to Jerusalem to worship, was returning.  And sitting in his chariot, he was reading Isaiah the prophet.

Then the Spirit said to Philip, “Go near and overtake this chariot.”

So Philip ran to him, and heard him reading the prophet Isaiah, and said, “Do you understand what you are reading?”

And he said, “How can I, unless someone guides me?”  And he asked Philip to come up and sit with him.  The place in the Scripture which he read was this:

“He was led as a sheep to the slaughter; And as a lamb before its shearer is silent, so he opened not His mouth. In His humiliation His justice was taken away, and who will declare His generation?  For His life is taken from the earth.”

So the eunuch answered Philip and said, “I ask you, of whom does the prophet say this, of himself or of some other man?”

Then Philip opened his mouth, and beginning at this Scripture, preached Jesus to him.  Now as they went down the road, they came to some water.  And the eunuch said, “See, here is water.  What hinders me from being baptized?”

Then Philip said, “If you believe with all your heart, you may.”

And he answered, “I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.”

So he commanded the chariot to stand still.  And both Philip and the eunuch went down into the water, and he baptized him. (Acts 8:26-38)

Philip couldn’t have possibly thought up an easier encounter.  Wouldn’t it be great if everyone we shared the gospel with was coming home from worship, reading a Bible, and asking for help with understanding it?
And, by the way, what if they just so happened to be reading a passage about Jesus dying on the cross for their sins?
You know what this tells me?  It tells me that sometimes, it really is that easy.  Sometimes, God does all all the hard work – and all I have to do is keep from tripping all over myself as I recite the gospel and pray.
And sure, there are going to be professions of faith that aren’t genuine. In the same chapter of the Bible, Acts 8, we have the story of Simon the Magician who believes, is baptized, and doesn’t make it twenty verses before Peter is doubting his salvation.
And yeah, I wish it didn’t hurt so much when people’s faith proved false.  But what are we going to do?  Turn people away at the altar?  Of course not.
So it’s time for me to retire my crystal ball, share the gospel plainly, and rejoice whenever anyone responds.  I’ll just keep serving God and let the Lord sort it out from there.



Incapable of Love?

by Reggie Osborne II
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I don’t like romantic comedies, but I love the movie Sabrina.  I’m pretty sure that my love of Harrison Ford overpowered my chick-flick resistance and suckered me into this one.  If Han Solo puts on a suit and tie and decides to change his name to Linus Larrabee, then I won’t apologize for watching and enjoying and silently waiting for Chewie to show up in a cameo appearance.

(Side Note: I realize this movie is a remake of some classic movie from the 1950’s.  I have been told this many times.  I have also been told that this movie is not nearly as good as the 1954 original, but I reject this notion on the premise that any movie with Harrison Ford is better than the same movie without him.)

The movie is about a young woman (Julia Ormond) who happens to be the daughter of a chauffeur for a very wealthy family.

“Once upon a time, on the north shore of Long Island, not far from New York, there was a very very large mansion, almost a castle, where there lived a family by the name of Larrabee. There were servants inside the mansion, and servants outside the mansion; boatmen to tend the boats, and six crews of gardeners: two for the solarium, the rest for the grounds, and a tree surgeon on retainer. There were specialists for the indoor tennis courts, and the outdoor tennis courts, the outdoor swimming pool, and the indoor swimming pool. And over the garage there lived a chauffeur by the name of Fairchild, imported from England years ago, together with a Rolls Royce; and a daughter, named Sabrina.”

She lives above the detached garage next to the family beachfront mansion.  She’s not very pretty or noticeable when the movie begins.  She’s getting ready to leave on a trip to Paris.


Oh, and by the way, she’s desperately in love with the David Larrabee (Greg Kinnear).

David and Linus Larrabee are brothers, but they are nothing alike.  Their father died when they were boys, and each of them grew into completely different men.  They clearly love one another, but neither understands the other’s life.  Linus is a businessman.  David is a rich playboy.

Linus makes Donald Trump look like a hobbyist.  He makes money.  He buys companies.  He’s powerful and respected and always right.

David is the screw up.  He has a new girlfriend every week.  He nonchalantly spends the family’s money, which Linus makes, and does whatever he pleases.

There’s a subtle tension in the relationship that occasionally surfaces.

David Larrabee: You’re talking about my life.

Linus Larrabee: I pay for your life, David. My life makes your life possible.

David Larrabee: I resent that.

Linus Larrabee: So do I.



Linus Larrabee (Harrison Ford) argues with David Larrabee (Greg Kinnear) in Sabrina (1995)

The basic plot of the movie is as follows:

  • Sabrina goes to Paris and transforms herself into a beautiful, confident young woman.
  • When she comes back, David falls in love with her, but he’s already engaged to another woman.  This new romance with Sabrina threatens a business deal that Linus is working on.
  • So Linus decides to make Sabrina fall in love with him.  He pretends to love her back, but he’s really just trying to get rid of her so she won’t interfere with the big business deal.

Something strange happens to Linus, though.  As he’s trying to get Sabrina to fall in love with him, he accidentally falls in love with her.  This doesn’t happen all-of-the-sudden.  It happens gradually as they talk and listen to one another.

The closer Linus gets to Sabrina, the more meaningless his business life seems.

Sabrina picks his life apart, questioning his heart and his character and his lack of joy and passion.  She is relentless in her observations of him, and he is repeatedly surprised by the way her words cut to the heart of who he is.

Sabrina: You probably don’t believe in marriage.

Linus Larrabee: Yes, I do. That’s why I never got married.

Over the course of time, the plan seems to work.  Sabrina does fall in love with Linus.  No one is more surprised by this than she is.  She realizes that her crush on David was just a fantasy – an “illusion”, as the movie describes it.  Her feelings for Linus are real.

She doesn’t know that he’s only trying to get rid of her so his business deal won’t be hurt by her romance with David.

Then everything falls apart.  Linus can’t go through with it.  He can’t jilt her.  It breaks her heart (and his) when he tells her the truth – that it was all just a ploy to keep her away from David until the business deal was done.  She goes to Paris alone.

But Linus can’t bear to think of her alone in Paris.  So he goes to his brother, David, in a last ditch effort to make things right.  He tells David to blow off his engagement, to fly to Paris, to meet up with Sabrina, and to make her happy.

Linus : This whole thing was a business tactic, I let it get out of hand. Somehow I lost my focus. I screwed up everything. But I know it can be fixed. I manipulated her, I confused her. But she’s loved you all her life. You’re what she really wants. You’re what she’s always wanted. Go with her, it’s not too late. Things will work out. She’ll make you happy. I don’t want her to have to leave here alone.

David : What about Patrick and the merger? You’d blow a billion dollars for this?

…I see.

Linus : Get going. Go on. Don’t miss the plane.

David’s stunned.  He’s shocked that his brother could love a woman more than he could love money.  He orchestrates his own plan to complete the merger himself, without Linus, and to send Linus off to Paris to be with Sabrina.

This works, of course.  Linus meets her there, professes his love, and pleads with her to forgive him and love him back.

Linus: Paris is always a good idea, you said.  You said I’d be happy here.  You couldn’t have meant without you.

Sabrina: How did you know where to find me?

Linus: Your father.  I told him I need you.  I told him I’d make you happy.  I promised him.

Sabrina: I thought it was all a lie?

Linus: So did I.  But something happened.  It was a lie.  And then it was a dream.


Why do I love this movie?

I’ve been in the same church for twenty years, and I’ve seen the Christian version of Linus Larrabee my entire life.  I’ve been the Christian version of Linus Larrabee.

It’s not that I didn’t believe in God or church or total devotion.  I just thought that sort of thing was for other people.

I attended church.  I went to activities.  I wanted the church to grow.  I wanted people to be saved from Hell.  These were all noble goals – but they weren’t my goals.  I was too busy with other things.  I said I loved God.  I’m not sure that I actually did.

I would see the passion of other people, men and women who were clearly willing to sacrifice everything in their lives to serve God and advance the gospel, and I admired that passion.  I admired my dad.  I marveled at how he could be so careless about things that seemed so important to me, all in an effort to give every part of himself to the church.

I was even jealous of his passion from time to time.  But I thought I was incapable of it. In my mind, I wasn’t capable of loving God and His church the way that other people were.

I was wrong.  I was so wrong.

My life was a joke.  The passions I had weren’t real.  Slowly, like Linus in the movie, men like Alistair Begg and John Piper and Albert Mohler began to poke holes in my life.  Maybe I was capable of a devotion to God far beyond what I had ever expected.  This happened gradually, but once it began, I couldn’t shut it off.

And now that I am finally alive in Christ, it breaks my heart to see so many who are only flirting with God.  I wonder what their lives would be like if they could let go of the things that keep them from being “all-in”.  They seem almost like tragic figures to me, admiring the passion of others but not willing to be passionate themselves.

What could the church be like if we truly sought after God’s kingdom first?  What if we made everything else in life take a backseat to the pursuit of God’s kingdom?

What if we all are capable of loving God with all our hearts, souls, minds, and strengths – but our own pursuits and passions have led us to believe that that kind of devotion belongs to other people?

It’s sad to see people not really accomplishing anything for God’s kingdom, never truly committing, never truly going 100%, always holding back, always tapping the brakes for fear they might get caught up in something that will jeopardize their other goals and agendas.  I don’t know what to make of it.

God has given us the keys to His kingdom, but we’d rather play sports or watch television or make money.  We’d rather let other people love God with all their hearts, so that we can get by with just loving Him enough to avoid Hell.

We’re not incapable of love.  We’re just too busy for it.



Be Like Jesus, Not Daddy

by Reggie Osborne II
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I love my kids, and I think I know what’s best for them, just like I think I know what’s best for me.  I think I know the decisions that they should make, and the things they should value, and the sins and temptations that are coming for them down the road.

So I sometimes tell them what they should do, and what I would do, and how to prepare for what lies ahead.  And it’s good that I do this.  We’re supposed to be having these discussions.  This is parenting.

But in the midst of all this instruction and teaching, there is a danger for them.  And the danger is that they’ll hear my counsel and my wisdom and my experiences, and what they’ll take away from all of that knowledge is, “I should do my best to be like Daddy.”

And there’s something heartwarming about that, isn’t there?  There’s something loving and respectful and utterly innocent about the little boy who looks up at his dad and says, “I want to be just like you, Dad.”  Or the little girl who sees her mom trying to hold things together and completely stuns her with the words, “Mommy, I want to be just like you someday.”

Kids don’t realize how fragile we are.  They see us as confident decision-makers.  They see us with control and command of a situation.  They have no idea what’s really going on in our heads and our hearts.

What if, with all of our counsel and wisdom that we give them, the message I end up mistakenly communicating is, “Just be like me”?  That’s not the right message.

The message they need is, “Just be like Jesus.”

So, officially and for the record, here are three ways that I hope my kids will model Jesus instead of Reggie. (And yes, I realize the potential for such a list is infinite.)

1.  Don’t look for joy in games and sports like Dad did.  Experience real joy in seeking God’s kingdom.

Jesus said, “The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and hid; and for joy over it he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field.” (Mat. 13:44)

Jesus gave all that He had for the kingdom of heaven, and He did it for joy – real joy, not the kind of fake joy that ends when the video game’s over or the sports are done.  The joy of God’s kingdom is eternally satisfying.  It is genuine and fulfilling.  It doesn’t leave you empty, looking for another game or another league.  It doesn’t disappoint.  It’s not ruined by pulled hamstrings or computer crashes.

It’s real!  That’s the joy I want for them.

2. Don’t look for peace or power or satisfaction in money like Dad did.  Find all of those things (and so much more) in God.

“Those who desire to be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and harmful lusts which drown men in destruction and perdition.” (1 Tim. 6:9)

Money will not protect you from catastrophe.  It will not immunize you to cancer.  Insurance for your house, car, life, and health may be wise and prudent, but if your peace rests in your bank accounts and insurance policies, then you’ve built your life on sand.  And when the tide comes in, and when it strikes at the foundation of your life, you will crumble.

The power and satisfaction and sense of accomplishment that money affords will not be worth the cost when you stand before the Lord and give an account of all that you’ve done.

So make money.  Make as much money as you honorably can.  But don’t keep it.  Don’t horde it.  And, for the sake of your own soul, don’t trust in it.  It will fail you.  It will fail you every time in the end.

Use your money with a vision of eternity in Heaven.  You will be glad that you did.

3. Don’t lie to yourself about your own sinfulness like your Daddy did.  Humble yourself, confess your sins, and see Jesus for the Savior that He is.

Jesus has always been honest about my sin, even when I wasn’t willing to be.

I understand that you hate your sin.  But denying that it’s there won’t help you.  Turning a blind eye to it, or (worse) trying to justify it, will only hurt you and those you love.  Ignoring or justifying sin rips a hole into the heart of the gospel.

If you can’t see your sin for what it is, then you won’t see your Savior for who He is.

Paul wrote, “This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief.” (1 Tim. 1:15)

You cannot fight an enemy until you admit that he’s there.  You cannot fight against the power of sin in your life until you recognize its presence (confession), assess your own strength (salvation by grace alone), and attack it at its core – those evil desires that have tricked you into thinking they’ll give you something good.

Jesus will never lie to you about your sin.  He’s given His life to save you from it and all its ugly consequences.

So Halle, Ashlynne, Jocelyn, Reggie, and Evelyn – don’t be like Mommy or Daddy when you grow up.  Don’t set your sights so low.  Be like Jesus, and never see me or your mother for more than what we are:  chief sinners, saved only by the blood of our cross-carrying King of kings.